Cloister

I wonder if I have unreal expectations of people. I don't think I do but lately I've been wondering if that's why people seem to let me down as frequently as they do. If that's the case and I really do ask too much of people then how do I stop caring? Please provide me with a step-by-step guide if possible.

Menagerie

Sometimes i wish I'm better than I am. I hate feeling so damn insecure and self conscious all the time, it really becomes exhausting after a while. I don't know why that is, really, this need to...you know I don't even know what this need is. I really need to get out of my own head every once in a while. I spent some time flipping through an old photo album just a few moments ago. I don't even know how the hell it got in my suitcase to begin with, but it was a welcome stroll down memory lane. Old pics of me and my dad and my mom. And looking back there are some pics where my mom had a little bit of a belly and I don't know how I missed the signs that she was pregnant. Another indicator that I should get out of my head every once in a while. i should really look through these more often, each picture brings back a flood of memories and laughs at family vacations past. I should show some of these to Sasha when I get back home, she loves looking at things and I know she'll love seeing her sister with mud (Christ I hope that's mud) all over her. Yay for trying to learn to ride bikes after a rain storm!

Running With Scissors

So I was reading my old blog and it was all so depressing - it had to go. Today is a new day and as such, I need to evolve into a new person. I suppose this blog is going to be a written record of said metamorphosis. Right now I feel like I'm on a somewhat self destructive path, and I need to get better. I think this is all I really have right now, sorry the intro was a little short but I promise there will be more to come.